Thursday, April 3, 2008

one of those days...or weeks

It has been one of those weeks, the kind that you wish you could have skipped. The kind where you hardly have time to sit alone, even for a minute. The kind of week that makes you either want to go outside and scream at the top of your lungs or else lie in your bed and have a good cry or perhaps do both. It's one of those weeks where you want to buy a cake, light the candles, blow them out and eat it all by yourself. Why? Because you are having a pity party. Yet it the midst of all the yuck you find little rays of sunshine. A 6 year old so pleased to have scored a goal, a 10 year old that signed her little heart out in the fourth grade talent show, parents that come take care of you (and fill your freezer full of yummy dinners so that you don't have another week like this one) a four year old that melts your heart with this long lashes and dimple in his chin, and an adorable baby that snuggles in your lap when she wakes up from her nap a little early. So what do we do, do we pass up these horrible weeks? Do we ask for them not to happen? If they don't happen, do we still get to experience the little glimpses of heaven? I want to say I don't mind having these kind of weeks. I wish I were one of those amazing people that say how blessed they are and thankful they are to have the trials they have had. But maybe those people are just like me, struggling to get through them, and then once they have passed through those dark times and come out on the other end, maybe that is when they say they are blessed and thankful. Maybe I just need to get to the other end of the tunnel. Maybe I need to be a little bit more like my Savior. Maybe I need a big, long nap. Or better yet, maybe I need a vacation. How much does that cost, I would like to buy a vacation from my troubles! Just for a day or two so I can recouperate. I need a breather so that I can be a fighter again, getting knocked down time after time can get tiring. So now that I have been as depressing as I can possibly be I am off to find solace. Rock a baby to sleep, and devour my time alone with my scriptures. Hopefully that will buy me a day! Have any good one's that you turn to? Send them, and your prayers. I will in turn pray that I am the only one that is having one of those weeks.


Mary Beth said...

ACCKK SHELL!!! I knew you were going to have a long week. So sorry it is "one of those weeks"!!! Will say a longer prayer for you tonight :)

When I have one of those weeks I remember the scripture Proverbs 3:5-6

"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths."

LOVE YOU GIRL!!! It will get better!!!

Ben & Shelly Edwards said...

I'm sorry. :( Thanks for your support. Hope you will get through whatever heartache you are having soon. We love ya! Glad to see when I do.I will think about the scripture one and let you know.


Linz said...

Aww Shelley! I am so very sorry that you are having a rough week! If you need anything, call me! Anytime!

My favorite scripture is Alma 37:37. It may not apply directly to trials, but it is still a wonderful one that always helps me know what to do and gives me hope.

Take care honey! Remember, without the bitter, we would not appreciate the sweet. (I know, I hate hearing that too, but it is true!)

Love you!

The Price Family said...

It's been a horrible week for me too. I sat down with the kids and we all 3 had a good cry this morning. In a way it's nice to know that I'm not the only one! It didn't help that after being yelled at all day by both my kids, Toby didn't come home until 10:30 last night. Hang in there, there just has to be an end soon!

Ben & Shelly Edwards said...

sorry late posting scripture,
1 Nephi 21:16 "Behold, I have graven thee upon the palms of my hands; thy walls are continually before me."