It has been one of those weeks, the kind that you wish you could have skipped. The kind where you hardly have time to sit alone, even for a minute. The kind of week that makes you either want to go outside and scream at the top of your lungs or else lie in your bed and have a good cry or perhaps do both. It's one of those weeks where you want to buy a cake, light the candles, blow them out and eat it all by yourself. Why? Because you are having a pity party. Yet it the midst of all the yuck you find little rays of sunshine. A 6 year old so pleased to have scored a goal, a 10 year old that signed her little heart out in the fourth grade talent show, parents that come take care of you (and fill your freezer full of yummy dinners so that you don't have another week like this one) a four year old that melts your heart with this long lashes and dimple in his chin, and an adorable baby that snuggles in your lap when she wakes up from her nap a little early. So what do we do, do we pass up these horrible weeks? Do we ask for them not to happen? If they don't happen, do we still get to experience the little glimpses of heaven? I want to say I don't mind having these kind of weeks. I wish I were one of those amazing people that say how blessed they are and thankful they are to have the trials they have had. But maybe those people are just like me, struggling to get through them, and then once they have passed through those dark times and come out on the other end, maybe that is when they say they are blessed and thankful. Maybe I just need to get to the other end of the tunnel. Maybe I need to be a little bit more like my Savior. Maybe I need a big, long nap. Or better yet, maybe I need a vacation. How much does that cost, I would like to buy a vacation from my troubles! Just for a day or two so I can recouperate. I need a breather so that I can be a fighter again, getting knocked down time after time can get tiring. So now that I have been as depressing as I can possibly be I am off to find solace. Rock a baby to sleep, and devour my time alone with my scriptures. Hopefully that will buy me a day! Have any good one's that you turn to? Send them, and your prayers. I will in turn pray that I am the only one that is having one of those weeks.
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